oh god life has come back and basicly hit me again this time not in a bad way ( thank god ). I just cant believe its been only like want a month?!! It still hurts to think that my mom and dad split and I told him that I hated him. I kept telling my self mom and I were better off with out him but then Why was he still there in my mind? I find out that he wasnt there when I was a kid and that my moms friend was the one that I called dad when I was little. But It wasnt him that did all thoses things it was his DAMN BROTHER it sucks to think that he has a twin brother that the only difference is hair and Eye color. who is evil as shit ( you dont want to meet him) I just cant believe that daddy would even think of being crule to momma or giving really ( really really ) retarded rules what kind of dad does that? Its just a releaf that hes never once been drunk or high in front of me, but the things I remember still hurt... alot all the things that happened that made me sit in my room and cry for hours. Now im just thinking of how it was and listing to "When in gone" and " mockingbird" (both by eminem) it just reminds me of back then. im just glad things can go back to normal and maybe i'll beat him in a game of play fighting.